Over-indulgence.

So, lately I have been finding it hard to eat reasonably. What I mean is, I've been taking things to excess and gorging myself on whatever it is I'm eating.

I still eat healthy, for the most part, but just WAY too much of it. I just can't seem to eat a single serving, or even a double helping... lately, I'll stuff myself to the brim, not stopping until whatever I'm eating is gone. Sure, this may eventually help with my issue of not gaining weight, but I think I might be going overboard with it.

For example, the past few days, I had to literally force myself to use restraint in eating the rice-krispy treats I made. I ate the entire batch in two sittings, instead of one. I just finished eating a pound of fresh cherries... again, forcing restraint on myself so I didn't eat the other pound. I went to the grocery store today, and I bought about a pound and a half of cooked shrimp, and I've been contemplating for the past hour if I want to eat them with cocktail sauce, or if I'll just eat them with wasabi and soy sauce.

I know the proper thing to do wold be to make a meal, of some sort, but I find it so hard to cook just for me. I actually prefer eating just one or two things at a time... if I could just do so without being a glutton. That is part of my problem, being on my own, if I don't eat something it goes to waste. Rather than have that happen, I'll prepare it all then instead of having leftovers, I'll eat everything in one go.
I guess I could just make less, but then I'll find something else to eat until I'm full anyhow.

I hate to say it, but I only seem to control my eating when I know someone is watching me. I need someone else to eat what I cook... better yet, I need a personal chef to make my meals, would a sushi chef be too much to ask for?
Maybe then I'd be content with eating a (semi)normal portion.